In my whole life I had never won any big prizes yet. However, tonight i got the honour of receiving the first and second prizes. But due to my foolish decision making matrix of basing on pride and grace, upon asking if I would like to share my first prize with another person, i agreed.
Sharing is suppose to be a happy thing. When other is happy, you will be happy. Guess thing just doesn't flow the way you want it to be. The first prize is a travel voucher of $600 and thus, i only got half of it. My best of friend came over and told me in a firm manner that why should i share and even if he is to take the company ticket, it will cost around $200 and initially both our tickets will be free. At that instance, i know that i made the wrong move. What had happened had happen.
It just leave me with a take away message; I am not so brave and intelligent after all. Why should i be worried of rejecting the suggestion of sharing in front of everyone on stage? Or I could have shared my second prize... It does hurt. Making a stranger happy and saving my own face, cause disturbance to the one that i cared for. This kind of conflicted with the sharing makes everyone happy concept.
Although one could always say that you could walk home empty hand anyway and after all, you still got something, at this very moment, swallowing doesn't seem to be easy. All i could do is some recovery work of paying for the balance and take this as an experience learnt. Seriously, it is really all my foolishness.
:( Ironic isn't it...
