What is considered as an idea life? Having a great noble career, family that cares for you, and able to find someone to dote on you on every single move? But then again, there are bound to have dark corners on every rooms. At this very moment, am sleepless and flashes of my past came knocking on my doorsteps. What have I done to my life? This might sound like I am thinking far too much for a 31 years old. However, 31 is not old, neither is it any younger. I really need to do some soul searching to define myself.

I might have a great job but having a fun job does not necessarily meant passion. Some how, emptiness is still there. Is this really what I want to do for the next 20 years? What about soaring and having a huge pay check?

I am really lucky to have such a wonderful family that supported me in all aspects. Specially whenever I get to speak to the students with family issues. However, nest will always be a nest. One needs to search and construct their very own. Upon reaching 50s, am i suppose to return to my sister or my nieces? Rather a loser in my perspective now...

I do not have much issue on my appearance and all thanks to my parents i guess. However, one has to fight against the worst odd, the gravity and pollution. Maybe i had been feeding on dumbbell but somehow, weight just keep increasing... what's way wrong???

As for having a great partner, I practically have it all. But where do we go from here? Setting up a family? To begin with, a roof is idea. However, it is not buying fishes from market. Dream will always be dream. One still need to surrender to the financial factor.

There are several views to one story. I guess I just have to have faith. Tomorrow will be better, Confirm... I hope...